I just wrote a whole bunch of crap and it all went away due to my stupidity...

Anywho, I'm still here, though rather busy these days. Mordab was never like an actual weblog but more like a nagging/chert o pert ing place for   me..nonetheless I still adore it. So much has happened since I last wrote something here...

Neda is dead, Iran is a mess, We're still fighting and trying to get the voices of poeple in Iran to be heard but we know we can't do shit, Los Angeles is hot this summer and it's fucking weather is literally chocking me..I'm in a happy place though. Besides all the tears and heartaches that I have for Iran's situation, but overall I can say that I am ok. I graduated and I'm fucking proud of myself, however I still say fuck biochem. I have a semi stable job and I'm having a good summer, let's hope I get into a grad school or it's gonna be downhill again. I feel safe with them and that makes me happy after a very long time. I miss Iran. I wanna be there. All of this is making that 'stupid boghz' make a comeback to my lovely throat. So much has happened though it feels like those old days. I can never forget that time you know. It's been way too long though. So much has happened.....Oh and I changed 3 guys since I last wrote about one here..ucla was fun but I don't miss the stupidities. I stopped hanging with the fake friends that I was surrounded by and now all of the sudden 'the life of the party' is by herself and all alone...it's ok though I'd rather be alone that with those crazy ppl. Oh and one more thing sometimes I am reminded of 'RF' and that makes me wanna puke. Haha I think my spelling has gone bad..Ummmm nothing else is new. I'm hopeful and sad and happy and frustrated....all at the same time.... 

Oh..by the way..remember this? --> Je suis malade...Complètement malade...
Comme quand ma mère sortait le soir...Et qu'elle me laissait seul avec mon désespoir...